The Diary Of Miss Nobody

Viewing habits.

If you read my last post you might guess why my viewing habits are as strange as they are at the moment.

I’m not one for television, it is just mindless crap so I spend most of my time fluttering around the internet, playing the odd game and watching the odd video. I have started to find that after exhausting the usual stuff (Facebook, Deviantart, Youtube, a few game websites) I start to find erotic videos, I’m not really sure why I just start looking at these but I do, I get some weird urge to watch them. It’s not for masturbation or anything, I just like them.

So recently I have started looking at more and more BDSM, I’ve never been the sweetest, softest girl in the bedroom anyway, and have been known to experiment with things, but some of the stuff I have found is pretty shocking, even to somebody like me. There is this one woman who goes by the name of Queensnake and she is absolutely M.E.N.T.A.L. I’m all for a bit of bondage and such but she just takes it to another level; whipping with nettles, putting drawing pins through her lady lips, and wait for it… stapling her downstairs closed! It makes me feel like such a wuss, I thought I could take pain but jesus christ almighty.

I do find some of this stuff very attractive though. Kink.com seems to be more on my level, it looks enjoyable but still rather painful. I’d love to find a boyfriend or girlfriend understanding enough to talk to about maybe experimenting in this area but bringing it up makes me so nervous, after all, it’s pretty heavy shit. I’d love to find a man who would let me beat him sensless and I’d love to meet a girl who would do the same to me. I mean where does anyone find these people and how do you go about asking? This kinda sex is erotic torture.

Basically, I really want to experiment in a heavier, darker side of sex, but have nobody to try it with!